A perspective from Here
I have to make a medical decision for one of my children and I am struggling. It isn’t a huge issue, but it feels it because it's pertaining to whether I want to use a chemical to moderate my child’s thinking. She is ADD, so am I, I have learned coping techniques but it has taken me thousands of years *nods* Yes Thousands, to get here.
I am concerned about relying on a drug for modification, what the long term effects from the drug itself are, what drug should I use, and if you need to go off the drug, what effect does that have on the child.
Decisions.
Knowing You’re Loved !
You know the girls asked me if I would do things differently if I had a chance and marry Matthew first.
My little one piped up quickly and said,” Would I be yours?" her large blue eyes gave me the answer more soundly that was already posed on my lips. "I would not want to do anything differently if it meant I didn't have you."
My Middle one said,” We are half daddies so you couldn't." I said, "Then let's leave things just the way they are, I love you too much to risk it."
Blogging Friendship ~
I met up with Poh for lunch yesterday. I always forget how very sunny her personality is until I get to see her again. Her heart is huge and her disposition a delight. I am grateful I got to know her as a friend. That woman has soul! We laughed a lot, can you imagine?
Hopping Back in Memory
I have just been contacted by a best friend from high school. Her husband, also a classmate of ours, is a teacher to my nephew. When he learned my brother was his dad, he ran home and told my girlfriend (his wife) who then gave her address to my brother. *winks* *(I always run the mile when a 50 yeard dash would do.)
I got a hold of it and am now going to get back in touch with her after 20 years.
I am struggling with my first letter. I am excited and anxious at the same time.
**Winter at Last **
I have had a wonderful winter week.
Usually I hate winter.
I never was a huge fan of snow and though I don’t enjoy snow and cold, but I have enjoyed the ice on everything all week.
Sunrises and sunsets have made ice covered trees, fields and fences become chandeliers of dancing lights. I have pulled over the car on three occasions and snapped shots but none of them reflect the joy that radiated in my heart from the sight I was seeing with my human eyes. This icy cold display of sparkling diamonds.
A New Way of Thinking
I am glad bloggers come here and post the pains and hurts they have in their lives. The beauty of this stream is the healing that takes place from this tight community. The bloggers here are healers, they know what to say and how to say it most times, and come to your blog to bond, to connect and lay their own related stories upon your hands.
When we take time to share what we cannot in spoken words, but can lay them in print for others to glean and read, we find upon return comrades that join forces, and we are no longer alone in our pain. We find a type of bond not found anywhere else.
This bond gives us a renewed strength which allows us to heal from the inside-out.
Oh the Choices We Make…
My daughter caved into peer pressure yesterday during an after school activity. She is 12, right when this acceptance level in school peer pressure increases.
The girls left their assignment and decided to go into another part of the school hall to do cartwheels and were sent home. She was mortified. I was relieved that she was mortified. This means she recognized the wrong and was embarrassed at not making the right choice. She asked me if I was going to punish her. She also was fearful of being kicked out of the club.
I explained that I was not angry but disappointed at the choice she made and that bigger ones were coming up soon. If she wasn’t capable of standing up with these small ones, that I was worried about the choices she will make when the harder ones come along. I told her, to tell me, what she could do to make things right.
She heard me, she told me this morning that she is going to apologize to the teacher and explain that he need not worry about her anymore, that she will be dedicated to her mission, and she meant it. She also is going to step back from two of the girls she has been hanging with because they are doing other things that get them into trouble a lot.
I am pleased with her decision, and I explained that popularity is not a necessary thing in life, especially if it means that you need to compromise standards and ethics for yourself to get there.
The Mind Never Rests
I am ready for summer. I miss the beach in it’s summer dress. The variety of people gathered to create a quilt of color. The joy my children have when we do our beach days and the smell of the warm ocean. I miss boardwalk fries, sandals and funky hats. I miss terry towels, sunglasses on the entire day…which reminds me! I need a pair! Mine got broke and the replacement pair has the little nose things that catch in my hair when I push them to the top of my head and I am going to get bald patches if I am not careful.
Guess I am going shopping,
Later Tater
*Hop scotches Away* 1...2,3.... 4...5,6...7... 8,9... 10.....
