(These questions were on CM's site and I liked it enough to carry it over to here.)
What does it mean to be you? It means that you will feel empathy and injustice and want to change it so much that it leaves you a bit breathless. You also see joy and love in simple things and want to share it.
What do you love? I love God, my family, my friends to a life serving degree.
What do you dream of? I dream of summers on the beach. I dream of futures bright and wonderful for our sweet daughters. I dream of a days filled with Matthew, of undriven roads and my coat hanging in the closet for weeks on end.
Does it ever seem enough? It is always enough. When you think less you are robbing yourself, and your family, I refuse to do that.
Does it ever seem like it's just too much? Sure, then I get up, dust myself off and think on solutions or maybe just a comfort.
Will you tell me everything? No, I will bring it to my savior upon my knees, for He asks that and wants that. I will tell that to my husband, alone, curled up next to him, in whispers.
What if I could see things your way? Your glass would be half full. Your emotions would ride upon your face and straddle your voice. You are not good at poker, so don't play.
I would run through your fields but we still might never know, is it easy come or easy go? It's been both. Fields weather many seasons, droughts and rich sun filled summers. But you own that field and no one can rob you of that, and when the sowing season comes, all will be full.
What do you see? I see children laughing and playing, I see fairies dashing amongst them laying rings of forget-me-nots on their heads, I see famine and war dissipate and joy and streams rich, and full of wild life, offering its refreshment to all. I see a loving God and a future bright.
What do you believe in? The power of faith. I believe in Christ and His words of balm to my wounded heart. I believe in My Matthew and believe I will never have to worry about love again. I believe this is available to all.
Will you tell me anything? Yes, God loves you and so do I.
I am so grateful and touched by your love. Your character and strength and your strong devotion to your family makes you a diamond in this world.
People around you adore you because you are patient, kind and loving; you treat them with respect and genuine concern. Their love is reflected in their words when they speak of you with adoration and I feel proud and delighted to call you my own. They are proud to call you friend.
Matthew darling, you treat each of our girls with love and concern. They feel it and I see it in action, you are an outstanding Dad and step Dad. There is no better example for them by watching your actions, and listen to your words.
You have given me more than I could have ever asked for in a husband. We both have suffered in the past and I know that has bonded us even more for we have a canopy of protection that has been built out of communication and devotion. I am grateful for that; it is a wonderful feeling to know even when we are apart by distance and time, there is nothing to fear.
I had no idea that it could be like this darling. I dreamt and desired, read and listened to love like this, but never knew I would find it on my own. As your name states, you are a Gift from God and I thank him daily for you. I will never take you for granted and I want your life to be rich and full because we have each other.
Matthew, during a time when I was learning how to stand on my feet, you often reminded me how solid the ground is and gave me your arm to find my balance. You never took over but empowered me by opening my eyes to the inner strength I already had but forgotten. You restructured my sentences and gave them back to me so that I was speaking with authority to my enemies, not with bitterness and anger, but with self respect, dignity and power.
Matthew, our shared faith is the foundation for this relationship, we both acknowledge that. Without our faith and without God we would falter amongst life, but that too gives us the ability to know that we can overcome any obstacles that come our way.
I have often referred to you as my ‘knight in shining armor’, and you are sweet man. The difference is that when I was in distress, you didn’t ride in and take me away. You stood beside me and we battled the demons together. You shielded me at times, but so many times you showed me how to protect myself. You never took over and you never needed to fill an inner pride or selfish act, you are more than I imagined, I will ever be grateful for that devotion, you never gave up nor did you ever leave.
Matthew, I love you. Thank you ever so much for having me by your side. The beauty of this relationship is that we uphold each other. We build up rather than tear down. Our weaknesses can be trying at times, but we find humor and guard each other during these times for we are our own strength, I have learned that.
Thank you sweet Matthew for all the many times you extended yourself to your family in oh so many ways. Thank you for your hard work, your strong character and your complete devotion.
I will love you for always and forever, as you are mine.
Today, Sunday I was driving my car headed north on the Pa turnpike when the snow squalls that read at 30% chance of happening that morning, leaned to the 30 and gave full head of a snow storm to my cars path. I had slowed to a 25 mph crawl and clicked on my 4 way hazards. You can bet when I am at this point, it is bad. Having lived in the rugged snow country most of my driving life has taught me how to handle a car but in these kinds of storms it is not always guaranteed and when you are to the point where the snow and winds wins over the visual, it is not a fun place to be.
I left Maryland and its 50degree delight having trimmed the roses and tilled the ground around the house to return to the frozen tundra and run the Iditarod without my snow dogs and sled. I was chatting with Matthew on the blue tooth and left 476 for I 81. I then mentioned to Matthew that this route always seems worse when the weather is like this when I had no time to react as I watched in horror at the cars just ahead of me spin out of control. I had no choice but to brake and even though I was going less than 30 mph my car started sliding, I pumped the brakes and steered into the slide as I said “oh no ..oh no..” repeatedly, then as I finally stopped about 10 feet from the car ahead of me I could only watch as the car behind me was sliding up toward the back of my car and my new repetition switched to “Please no …Please no …Please no…” as the car passed me on my right side up the shoulder of the road and rested into the batch of the cars spun out there. It was then I took a deep breath and changed my plea to a prayer of “Thank you dear Jesus, thank you” and then concern filled me to the others ahead of me that were not as fortunate as I was and I prayed for those all in this mess.
Just a few minutes later, those of us capable of moving were directed to do so, as we weaved and drove past the others, I felt many emotions. I felt fortunate, sad and amazed. Although a couple of cars were completely incapable most of us were unscathed or lightly bumped. Miraculously, at the lead of the mess a tractor and trailer sat in meridian, upright although his struggle to do so lasted quite a while and no other vehicles were involved. I counted over 20 of vehicles involved.
Tonight on the news they spoke of a multi-car pile up and I listened but this accident happened on I -390 (a highway my daughter takes for college and one I travel often) had a 35 car pile up. One young woman of 17 lost her life and 12 others were hospitalized. I felt the loss, and my ordeal which had seemed so large, was diminished and my heart went to those families.
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